The essay I handed in was completely different from what I submitted as my first draft. I decided to change the thesis of my essay the day it was due and had to rewrite my sentences to align with my thesis. I decided to change it because as I was trying to explain condensation and find an example, I realized it could have had a similar meaning to another story we talked about. This realization brought me to the conclusion that I should change my thesis as it would make it easier to find a condensation example, plus I thought it would have better content than my previous draft. I was a bit weary of submitting my second thesis because it wasn’t peer reviewed so I wasn’t able to have the same luxury my first draft had but I decided to take the risk. Personally I think my second draft had better examples and relatability to Freud compared to my first draft which had the same but to a lesser extent. The assignment helped me engage in the Course Learning Outcomes by making me view the story in two different ways. My first thesis viewed the doctor as trying his best to be helpful but not being able to help anyone including himself. My second thesis viewed the doctor as someone with sexual desires and as a man who didn’t want to lose his manhood. These two very different ideas would have never been thought of by me, if it wasn’t for the poem we talked about during class. Without the poem, I would’ve never thought the worms had phallic intentions and would have viewed them innocently as just being a very bad wound on the patient. Overall I’m satisfied with how things turned out with my final essay. I believed it helped me think more critically in terms of viewing the story through a freudian lens and helped me think more deeply about the hidden meanings behind certain things.
